I was so excited after hitting 12 miles this month to keep going. Wednesday and Thursday mornings, though, I had some things going on that meant that I couldn’t swim in the morning, and then by the time I was done with those, the ball of the day was already rolling, and I didn’t stop it to take the time to go swim like I wanted.
Instead, I put it off and looked forward to this morning. There were two other things that were competing for my attention: a request for help at school, and a mass being said for a friend. I was tempted by both opportunities. Really, I felt guilty about considering not choosing to do something I felt like I should. I should, after all, be running around doing *stuff* right? Instead, I decided that I really, really wanted and needed to swim.
There have been many mornings this month that I really didn’t want to swim. If I had to get wet, I wanted it to be in private, with warm or hot water and great smelling soap and shampoo. I wanted to feel clean and warm and dry when I was done. But this morning? I was looking forward to it. I wanted to feel like I had done something this morning, I wanted my muscles to feel a little tired because they had been worked. I even wanted to feel the water feel cold for a couple of seconds until the activity made it feel warm and cool at the same time. I was even ok with the contortions needed to make sure that my socks and pant legs wouldn’t get wet because the floor was wet.
But when I got out of bed this morning to wake up the girls, I intended to walk straight to the door, but ended up smacking into the side of the dresser. I course corrected to Katie’s doorway and came close to falling down the stairs. By the time I was getting Maggie, I realized that I was having some issues with my balance. I wasn’t dizzy… just off-balance. It was a strange feeling.
So, today, I didn’t get my swim today. But I am getting to chill on my couch for a while today while I try to reset my balance-meter in more ways than one.
Monday, though? I will be swimming. It’s all about balance, right?
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